You know that
You've worked hard
You've been a good person
You deserve to be rewarded
People should give you the reward you deserve
Sometimes your actions mean you deserve negative consequences.
Also, sometimes other people deserve to be rewarded by you.
That doesn't fit into your philosophy
Wait. It does
But you don't care
This is about you not anyone else
You deserve good things
You're a good person
You're certainly not selfish.
Not at all.
Cuz then what would you really deserve?