I asked God for wisdom  / by Richardo Hill

I asked God for wisdom 

So I could be a better man
I didn't expect to get this much of it
I didn't expect my eyes to be opened to the point where I want them closed again.
I don't want to see it all
I don't want to understand the pain
I don't want to see the people willingly walking to destruction
I don't want to see the manipulation
The lies
The emptiness
The....fake

I was ignorant and it was ok because knowing too much and noticing too much is tiring.
So tiring that I don't know if it's worth teaching others.
Wisdom is a burden though.
it has to be released.
Seeing is pain
Understanding is pain
Being silent is pain
Speaking out is pain.

I asked God for wisdom
So I could be a better man

And I don't even think I'm a better man.